Love Your Enemy

You blocked me again
YouTube this time
“Sooperkewl!” apparently a crime
You’re the only one from your family who bothers to block me
The rest just don’t respond
There is no point in saying anything to them

I’m so depressed
I can barely think
Much less write

I don’t have a problem with your father
Just some dude who was cruel to me two years ago
His crime was being typical
It’s hard to stay mad about that
His punishment is that he gets to be a villain in my book
Written in a language spoken on the other side of the planet
That no one will ever read anyway
The book was written for you
To explain how I love you

If I am nothing but an insignificant old memory
Then my rants to the wind and the sky shouldn’t bother anyone
But if you want me to be nice to your father, tell me so
If you want me to be nicer about women, tell me so
If you want me not to use profanity, tell me so

I’m the Hulk
Ripping tanks in half
Screaming
PUNY HUMANS!
You’re my Betty Ross
But you block me

I do not need your kisses
I do not need a place between your sheets
My love for you is a methamphetamine psychosis loaded bomb of Spotify songs
It’s important for me to be accepted by you
But I am used to that not being the case
All I really need from you is the love that your king told you to give to your enemy

I’m trying to teach you something
Rey from nowhere
You’ll have to be different from your family
If you can love your enemy
It will just be the three of us
You, me, Jesus
And this will be a sign

The Jews are no better than Mexicans
They won some wars because God has a plan
That’s all
There is nothing holy about your country
And there won’t be until Elijah and I wake them up

Jonathan, if fifty people in Israel love their enemies, will you be gracious?
Yes, if fifty people in Israel love their enemies, I will be gracious
If forty people in Israel love their enemies, will you be gracious?
Yes, if forty people in Israel love their enemies, I will be gracious
If thirty people in Israel love their enemies, will you be gracious?
Yes, if thirty people in Israel love their enemies, I will be gracious
Twenty?
Yes
Ten?
Yes
Five?
Yes
If the electrochemical girl loves her enemy, will you be gracious?
Yes, if the electrochemical girl loves her enemy, I will be gracious

I have to go over there and put some ideas into the public sphere there
I’ll be giving up the only woman who has been good to me
I have no friends there
No family
Nothing but bad memories
It is the Ninevah to my Jonah

Can you love your enemy?
I have been built to be a creature of wrath
But there are several possible endings to my book
“The van Ouwerkerks weren’t total shitheads after all” is one of them
Want to help me write that one?

“Jonathan Bailey is a sex predator” is Satan’s favorite weapon
I have a weakness to it
It is what is going to happen to me
Satan has already started using it
It would be easier to deal with it if you were on my team

I do not need your kisses
I do not need a place between your sheets
But I am in despair about my future
And I don’t entirely understand my experiences
But God did what he did in my life for a reason

In two years, I have said nothing to you except “Sooperkewl!”
And you blocked me
And it broke my heart

The things I am writing in my book are intense
Insane
But they are from years ago
I have coffee with my friends like everybody else

You block me because you see me as insane, obsessed, crazy, angry
Ever thought about making peace instead?
Ever thought about changing that?
Ever thought about being a sign of hope for someone?

Love your enemy, Padawan

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