Welterusten!

I spit liquor into your face
I light it on fire
You bitch ass mother fucking disgrace
You’ve earned my ire

Let me tell you straight and level
You work for the goddamned devil
Hands raised praising the sky above
You are the enemy of love
A hypocrite
Who doesn’t even know it

The gift of your hypocrisy
Was a robbery of my serendipity
Because your king Lucifer, the murderous lord of stupidity
Commanded you to protect your daughter from a monk under a vow of celibacy

Your heart lacking a drop of the Holy Spirit
You wouldn’t know a good thing if you saw it
Instead you run furiously in the opposite direction
Closing your eyes and covering your ears in desperation

Now I’ll tell you something really outrageous
Your stupidity is contagious
Everyone around you cowed to your program of isolation and ignorance
But they didn’t become such hateful idiots by happenstance
You taught them to do it with your paranoid musing
Because in any group of godless sheep only one person is thinking

There is no commandment to prevent what you were afraid of
The problem is you don’t have a working definition of love
The Bible you read might as well be in Hebrew
Because if you understood it, you wouldn’t know what to do
You think divine service is wearing a kippah on a trip to Tel Aviv
But when someone needs your help you promptly leave
And block every phone call
So the things God wants you to learn will be muddled voices at the far end of the hall

The one needing help wasn’t only me
It was also your daughter
Now neither of you will ever see
The divine mysteries I would have revealed to her
Which would have made her heart grow full
And her genius mind would grow fast and strong
Instead of a life of events commonplace and dull
Because you told her that’s where good girls belong

So instead of walking arm in arm with the definition of beauty
I endure deceptive rants from every sort of extra-planar entity
While your pastors and priests praise you as a pillar of the community
And they call me crazy in your world of insanity
And ignorance, isolation, hatred, and vanity

She won’t even check Facebook
She will never even take a look
She will never see
That no matter where I am or who I am with, this memory
Will linger eternally deep within my center
In that place where only she, annually, wearing linen soaked in blood may enter

Good job, fucker.

Blondine

A fish swims in an ocean with no shore
Who do you think you are?
Do I have a collar with a clip for the leash you have for me?
How could God create someone with such power?
And as far as I have been able to tell,
He didn’t give it to me

He gave it to you
Your eyes house a blue ocean of genius
Your eyebrows like wings of sunlight
Dual tiaras crowning divinity
Could even the Desert Fox outwit such a thing?
Foxy queen of the deserted heart
Dousing my soul in blonde

Is there a child in that royal house?
Do you even know the storied history of your blood?
Can you count the thousand ships you’ve sunk, dear Helen?
Field Marshall Montgomery.
Have you heard the story of how you brought Icarus to the sun?

What am I to do for you?
What are you to do for me?
Or for us all?
We pine

Served sushi by a goddess
Vishnu sits with a plate in his lap
Flavors of the beyond
Juice of magnificence
He is baffled

The Widow's Web

Each moment in life is like an anvil struck by a hammer
Each experience involves a thousand sparks spraying the consciousness
With a brilliant, luminous, colorful shower
Providing the memory with a landscape of expansiveness

Sadly, each spark lasts only a moment
As each of us is merely a temporal transient
But this is the story of a second in a widow’s web
That caused the transient’s despair to ebb

Two dudes were staggering down the street
Not cognizant of who they’d meet
Not knowing the nature of the coming encounter
That would be had on two sides of a bartender’s counter

They thought they’d sit and order a beer
But they were served a dish of beauty and cheer
The hot dish moved back and forth with the steps of a panther
Delight sprang from each step as the boys dialed up their amorous blather
They could do nothing but feebly verbalize their utter enchantment
At the beautiful soul encased in the body of an Olympic contestant
Adorned with hoops of gold, a ringlet of obsidian, and a jacket displaying eighty two
Trust me, just looking at her will convince you that she thinks the world of you
And when you’ve been convinced, she will smile
Something no woman has done to you in a while

But this widow isn’t just some type of spider
There is something infinitely grand and powerful inside her
She once was the wife of a man now with God above
No stranger to the pleasure and pain of two dancing in love
And to two children she is a mother
But does she lack a friend, a lover, a husband, or a brother?

These thoughts beset him as he let himself be dragged to Mexico
By a frantic and hysterical horse named Hidalgo
Will she be a spark in a shower consumed by night?
Are his plans for the future just a kneejerk of panicked flight?
If not, then who would this widow be?
Now that his failure to Noah has destroyed his destiny
And he is truly free
From his own identity

Aftermath

Inspired by a line from Silvia Plath
I put the pen to paper
Desperate to find myself again on a path
But fearful to behold the scorched earth into which my path will taper 

My family and friends are just accounts on Spotify
Apparently abandoned by their owners
Their content supplied by spirits hoping to magnify
The insanity of aimless wandering loners 

The images of people who were never there
Are etched into my mind
And wrapped around my soul
An echo of love of nothing raises every hair
The lack of a voice that isn’t mine
Consumes me like a black hole 

Don’t even talk about the song
That’s what they say
So I will wait forever for the day
To find that for which I long 

The thousand curls of chocolate
Are just another form
Of a Dutch girl’s waves of caramel
The tail of Haley’s comet
Is today’s new norm
Of tomorrow’s brand of hell 

Will there ever be a passable state of order?
Or will I just die in a ditch south of the border?
I wish I could stay still forever for you
But my life has to move forward too 

If you can find the courage
Not to disparage
But simply to place a call
You will be my wonderwall 

Now I refuse to say the word never
But I won’t be completely free forever
When I was young, I missed the boat of another
And now I am only a cousin to an utterly incredible lover 

So I’ve learned that I’m the last Jedi
Me, myself, and only I
Listening to ghosts on Spotify
Trying to discern the reason why
God hasn’t caused me to die 

Noah, do you even see me in these black waters drowning?
I doubt you have the will or knowledge or love to save
A swimming scorpion from your ark’s irresistible wave
While you lay silently on your bed in your room frowning 

I don’t know how to give up on you
I taught myself to forget how to do that
The last time I lost a soulmate
This has happened to me a time or two
But it’s something I can’t pull out of a hat
So if you do nothing, it will be too late
Not for me, but for you
This will be a new thing for you where you’re at
The alarm with no wake-up date 

I know it well
But I’ve already used the word hell
So I liken to hades
Being ghosted by ladies
For whom I am the solution
To their evolution 

I’ve already lost my virginity
To the prospect of an eternity
With the memory of an unsolvable riddle
Did you ever even notice me
Sitting under your magic apple tree
Or just unwittingly play me like a fiddle
Sounding like a soliloquy
Of a buzzing bee
With a mute playwright in its middle 

From me to you, I’ll always be there
But from you to me
We don’t know who we’ll be
If the day comes when you care